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I write verbose posts about polyamory, love, lust, and self-discovery on my other blog Victoria's Imaginarium.

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Goodbye, 2013

2013 has been an eventful and fruitful year!

In January I was back in Malaysia, and I removed 3 wisdom teeth within a week. The one shown this photo was the most horrible one. Unlike in the states, dentists in Malaysia normally performed wisdom tooth surgery without putting the patients to sleep... I couldn't feel it during the procedure, but a few hours after I got home the anesthesia effect started wearing off and extreme pain started kicking in, spreading to the whole left side of my face down my throat. It was more painful than the most painful dysmenorrhea episode I ever had, I was downing pain killer pills until my stomach couldn't take it anymore and I eventually threw up. Thankfully Kitty and WanYu were at my house that night, their presence made the pain more tolerable (and laugh-able too, the way I was weeping and moaning next to a bag full of cotton wool soaked in blood).

Sunday, December 29, 2013

Winter Graduation! (Kitty and Rudy)

I hope you could tell from my distorted face how miserably cold I was. My bangs was fucked up too ughhh
Kitty's ridiculous outfit was another indication how cold it was. Hats off to you, Rudy.

Friday, December 27, 2013

The Hardest Part

What is it exactly that we build love upon? Love that is lustful and romantic and rewarding and jealous and insane and frightening all at the same time. When we say we love someone, what is it exactly that we love? 

Do we love them for what they intrinsically are? Their good genes and commendable upbringing for example. That they are intelligent, good-looking, sweet-natured, passionate but sane, etc. 

Or because of what they are capable of making you into? That they are inspiring, and encouraging, and kind and complementary to your personality such that when you're with them, you feel your life is moving forward and they move along with you. 

Or because you feel you give them a lot, and you feel you're appreciated and wanted, and needed. 

Or because time and chance throws you in together with someone under the most peculiar circumstances and paves a road for you to take?

Fuck knows. I think at the end of the day, despite all of the above, the only way it can work is if you believe it. But it's the same with all the other great motivations in life (love, ideas, expression). You can know all the rules, and you can manufacture the perfect conditions in which to achieve them, but in order for them to happen, you must believe you are capable of achieving them. And that they seek you. And it's the believing in them seeking you, that is the hardest part.

I think at the end of the day, love is essentially a construct like a fine great arch, reaching into the sky. You don't know how it stands, or why it stands. But once upon a time, it was built with scaffolding that is no longer there. And after a time, it doesn't matter what the scaffolding was made off, or how safe or sturdy it was. The arch either stands, or it doesn't, and the idea is to keep it standing.

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

I can haz grumpy cat

The semester is over, post-finals week was not any less busy (commencement, snow ball fight, catching up with friends, Christmas' Eve party, Christmas party etc), now only I find time to sit down in front of my laptop and sink in! 

Okay let me resume blogging with this useless post.

So I saw this thing at Urban Outfitters.

Monday, December 2, 2013

Hi, December

But no matter how tensed situations could get,
I can always make a long list of things to be grateful for.

是非 頑張ってくださいね

Tuesday, November 19, 2013


So yeah, no more regular updates until I'm done with this semester.

4 more weeks to go.

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

What pain do you want?

If you find my story boring just jump straight to the more valuable article at the bottom. You're welcome.

Today I reluctantly showed up in this 1-credit class conducted in a seminar form (which I found academically useless but have to take) and the instructor had us sit in a circle and talk about what made us choose to become scientists. The first person who shared her stories said that it's family influence and that passion for science occurred to her naturally since they were at very young age. All other people who shared their thoughts afterwards went by similar storyline (geez, why is it that everyone has at least one parent who is a scientist?!) and my attention started to shift from listening to doodling on my notebook while thinking about my own reasons for choosing the science path.

In the end I didn't give my two cents in class— in most cases, I'd rather sit in silence if I find it challenging to give truthful, meaningful, succinct responses. The last thing I wanna do is to go on and on and on and ee oh ee oh like one of my classmates always did... I cringe whenever she raises her hand and starts talking cuz she'll never keep it short and the instructor won't stop her either ಠ_ಠ I know it's her right to express her opinions etc la but isn't it common sense to stop before things get stale and boring.......... (btw, is it just me or ESL students with fairly good command of English generally cringe at poorly spoken English or heavy accents more than native speakers do?) (well, to be fair, I actually cringe at bad any language) (← not trying to be a snob here har, I cringe at myself too wtf) (lololol after I updated the "About Me" on the side bar, I don't care to minimize usage of brackets anymore) (eh where was I??? oh— )

Monday, November 11, 2013

Walt Disney World ⋅ Disney's Hollywood Studios

(March 2012)

It was the third and the last day at Walt Disney World, and we learned our lessons! The night before, I googled for tips to avoid long queue and planned our trip accordingly. So the next morning we arrived early and straightaway went to grab FASTPASS for Rock 'n' Roller Coaster Starring Aerosmith, then queued up for The Twilight Zone Tower of Terror ride. These two are the "big" rides at Hollywood Studios, FASTPASS usually runs out before noon and regular queue becomes super long pretty quick too so you gotta act fast if you hate waiting in line!

The Twilight Zone Tower of Terror is based on the popular television series created, hosted and written by Rod Serling which originally aired from 1959 to 1964. 

The mystery of the tower goes like this: 
On a stormy Halloween night in 1939, 5 unlucky souls disappeared from the Hollywood Tower Hotel’s doomed elevator. Classic stars of the silver screen sought rest and relaxation at the Hollywood Tower Hotel during the Golden Age of Hollywood. In 1939, during a gloomy Halloween night, 5 unfortunate hotel patrons were riding in the elevator when a violent storm struck the building… and they were never seen again. Whatever became of them and wherever they may have gone has remained a mystery to this day. The hotel closed down that night and has remained abandoned ever since...

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Walt Disney World ⋅ Duffy Bear

Duffy (and Shellie May too, the female version) is over-the-top popular in Japan, almost everyone who has been to Tokyo Disneysea owns one! When Kitty and I were in Tokyo, we visited Disneyland because it was nearer from the airport compared to Disneysea, and then I left without any Duffy or Shellie May :(

So can you imagine how happy I was when I spotted Duffys at Walt Disney World?! Can you?!!

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Bitstrips Comics!

For those of you who don't already know, Bitstrips is an app that turns you and your friends into a cast of cartoon characters, which can then be customized and put into crazy scenes. Users are asked to build their avatars by selecting all of the usual physical features, including skin color, hair style and body shape. You can then place your digital doppelgänger in any one of thousands of different, daily updated templates of scenes, choose whether to include some Facebook friends in the cartoon, add dialogues and captions, then share the image on various social networks. It's been around since 2008, but the reason Bitstrips is having its big moment right now is because it launched that iOS app just about a month ago!

I found it especially fun when I came across relevant templates I could use to illustrate what happened between WSK and I hehehehehe

Cat-lover versus Dog-lover

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Motorboating in the name of "charity"

(eww. I still feel disgusted looking at the thumbnail of this video even though his face is mostly blocked by the YouTube logo...)

Did your own research if you don't seem to know what's going on. I don't wanna be the one to brief you on it because it's impossible for me to do it objectively without loathing them and what they did in that earlier video (they deleted it from their channel, but you can still find it on the internet). Also, apparently these 3 guys involved make a living by teaching guys how to pick up then dump girls— some of you supporters of pick up artists might want to sugar coat it and call them relationship gurus in defense, well, this is not the main thing I want to address here so let's not argue about this *shrug*

Back to the topic. Don't bother leaving me comments if your arguments are gonna be somewhat along the lines of
"Who cares how they made the donation? Charity is charity!" 
"I don't get why the big fuss, the women involved are consenting adults."
"Will you all still be so against this had it been a video of three women doing similar act to raise awareness for prostate cancer?"

I've read many similar debates. Surprise me with something new.

Friday, November 1, 2013

Halloween: Haunted House

Okay. Initially I was reluctant to make public the reason we ended up in Chicago on Halloween, but you know what, since this lesson costs me $64.60 I might as well paste the bill here.

I forgot whether I mentioned it before— so a few months ago I bought 2 tickets to Cocorosie's concert in Chicago, while WSK was still in Brazil. I didn't buy the bus tickets at once because I didn't know whether we would want to stay overnight in Chicago, which had to depend on our midterm schedule etc.

Last month I bought the bus tickets. WSK insisted not to skip any class hence

Departure time: Thursday, Oct 31 right after WSK's afternoon class
Return time: Friday, Nov 1 right before WSK's morning class

When WSK came home for lunch break a few hours before the departure time, I logged in to my hotmail, wanted to forward him the e-tickets so that he could print them out when he headed out. Then only I realized...

Monday, October 21, 2013

Walt Disney World ⋅ Magic Kingdom (Day 2)

(March 2013) The next day after visiting Universal's Islands of Adventure we continued to explore the rest of Magic Kingdom! 

OOTD which you will not see anymore in the rest of this post.

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Last night's party

I'm trying to complain less and mention less about events or people that could evoke negative feelings so I'm just gonna leave you with this photo:

Let's just say there are things to be grateful for in every circumstance and I can now be more stern when it comes to deciding what occasions and which people are actually worth my time in the future ♡

Thursday, October 17, 2013

SKIT: Weird American Office

Attached is the recording of our skit presentation last semester, which was voted to be the best skit in our section!

Big thanks to
Tatebe — Me
Tanaka — Mern-jie Tan
Boss — Steve Ripley
Employee — Stephanie Kempf
T.A. who proofread and corrected our script — Eri Sato
Professor who assigned this presentation — Takako Nakakubo
... and classmates who voted for us! :D

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Natural gallbladder flush

Three weeks ago, I started having stomachaches after dinners, and the pain lasted the whole night until I went to bed. At first I didn't give much thoughts on it since I did get digestion problems once in a while, so I thought it was either lactose intolerance* or something to do with the refrigerated food. It wasn't long before the recurrence pattern got my attention and on Thursday night, I had a major one, it was so bad I couldn't even do anything else except laying on bed mewling. Kit gathered my symptoms, did a quick search on the almighty internet and immediately figured out what it was.

*do you know studies claimed that at least 80% of southeastern asians are lactose intolerant? sucks if you love milk and/or cheese... but helps you stay healthier I guess? Since studies also showed that dairy products are generally bad for us. Idk! So many contradicting findings everywhere nowadays and I'm too lazy to dig into every finding I come across so let me just believe in what I choose to believe in and depend on Law of Attraction wtf.

Monday, October 7, 2013

Some old dramas

People never fail to surprise me. Only if these people don't read my blog, you will surely have a nice time reading all the intriguing details how crazy those scandals can be, and how funny I've been a psycho magnet all my life.

Not that I'm complaining though... free amusement, free amusement babe. :)

Anyway I'm in the mood of spilling some stories and since very few people read my blog nowadays, here goes:

  1. There was this one guy who came to me and said he didn't know what he should do to stop this good friend whom he stuck with everyday from liking him. His reason for still sticking with and giving attention to her all the time: after he rejected her romantic pursuits, she cried and begged him on the phone for an hour. Since all she asked for was simple (which was to continue sticking together), he agreed to it. Btw, I also know that before she confessed, they used to write each other letters everyday and the contents were pretty suggestive. (how did I know? well, never talk about private stuff in the toilet, you never know who else are behind those closed doors eavesdropping)

Thursday, October 3, 2013


You better hide your kids, hide your wife! They steal everything (well, almost).

You can start watching at 1:00. OMG PRICELESS

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

8 Mistakes Our Brains Make Every Day

(Written by BELLE BETH COOPER at Business Insider)

Get ready to have your mind blown.

None of them are huge, life-threatening mistakes, but they are really surprising and avoiding them could help us to make more rational, sensible decisions. Being aware of the mistakes we naturally have in our thinking can make a big difference in avoiding them. Unfortunately, most of these occur subconsciously, so it will also take time and effort to avoid them—if you even want to.

Sunday, September 29, 2013

Would you rather

I think I figure out a way to help you figure out whether you love a person (romantically) more than you love yourself.

Answer the following question:

Would you rather...
A. lose a limb to be together with this person your whole life, provided that this person will never mind that your body is no longer whole, will always love you, and you will still be fertile. The loss of that one limb will not obstruct you from getting successful in the future, the only downsides are a-life-time inconvenience and possibly self-image issues (depending on how you deal with it psychologically).
or ...
B. have all your limbs intact and spend your life with someone else (whom you haven't met yet) who will also always love you. But the person you initially love (the one in option A) will suffer the loss of your love for his/her whole life.

Friday, September 27, 2013

Walt Disney World ⋅ Magic Kingdom (Day 1)

During our spring break in March, we went to Orlando, Florida for four days, three days to visit Walt Disney World and one day for Universal Studios. Walt Disney World consists of four theme parks: Epcot, Animal Kingdom, Magic Kingdom and Hollywood Studios. The former two didn't appeal to me so I decided to only visit the latter two. We started with Magic Kingdom, which based on my research would take up to two days to explore!

Route: Dane County Regional Airport, Madison, WI ✈ ✈ Orlando International Airport shuffleHoward Johnson Enchanted Land Hotel public bus Disney's Transportation and Ticket Center monorail Magic Kingdom

Walt Disney World Magic Kingdom
Taken from inside the bus

On the monorail. Dolly eyes + puffy cheeks = fresh like a daisy ✿ lolololol

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Monday, September 23, 2013

Oh deer.

I kept replaying this and giggled to myself the whole night. And then I choked on my own saliva. Retarded -_-

Thursday, September 19, 2013


Note: I'm on a roll since I dug out some old photos for the previous post. All photos below were taken with my first and second Samsung flip phones during my teenage phase.

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Sunday, September 15, 2013

First party this semester

Went to an Asian party (pre-game) on Friday night at Spencer's place. The girls who came were all so damn gorgeous *slurp* but no pictures for you all cuz by the time the atmosphere warmed up, half of the people was already so drunk and we all left in a rush to get into a club.

I think we were the only girls in senior year? And we were I was creeping on the newbies hahahahaha

Friday, September 13, 2013


To my chagrin, I guess I can never grow empathy for people who just don't want to see the bigger picture, choose what's beneficial in the longer run and plan their lives ahead. Don't get me wrong, of course I do know that life is full of uncertainties and that the quote "if you fail to plan, you're planning to fail" holds no absolutes, but what if it has been crystal clear that they do not want the current situation to persist for their whole lives? I shouldn't be surprised if anyone refuse to start anew just because of the fear of not being able to do better huh.

"It's often easier said than done."

Hey, you know what, nobody is ever 'ready'; it's really just whether you want the change to happen badly enough. No one can ever be sure enough what are the smarter decisions to make, because as everyday passes more wisdom is accumulated, so based on what should we derive that it's time to stop waiting and just make that best bet we can?

Doing the 'right' things (or even, making the 'right' mistakes) requires maturity, and maturity consists of adequate understanding about one's self— which helps one figure out what one desires in life. This understanding does not come free though, the cost is lots and lots of mistakes and regrets. No other person can learn our life lessons for us, and human will never learn from history, we're all screwed anyway (because we're all gonna die), so stop whining, make the best choice you can make and suck it up.

Once you've matured enough, you will naturally pick up the right glasses to fix your shortsightedness in life.

God helps those who help themselves.

ps: pardon the terrible flow, apparently I'm not in the best state of mind now.

Wednesday, September 11, 2013


First week of class wasn't too bad. It's now the second week, and I can already conclude that I'm not too thrilled about classes I'm taking this semester.

My statistics class is taught by a very young lady from China, she talks v-e-r-y  s-l-o-w and the syllabus is so elementary. I slept away her lectures and finished studying a whole week's syllabus on my own within 10 minutes wtf. Why should I attend the morning lectures then. Might as well just sleep at home.

Immunology is okay, I like the syllabus, but the lectures were too concentrated, it's almost impossible to learn and remember 1 whole chapter of facts and details within a lecture period. I do like the professor, he's an old man who seemed very knowledgeable in his field and passionate in teaching, however when it comes to biology, there is no such thing as not being able to understand the syllabus without someone explaining it to you, so I really prefer studying on my own at home. But he said he will give pop quizzes... bohuat have to attend class then.

Physics— 2 professors, one from China and one from France. The one from China is not too bad actually, but the French one speaks with very irritating accents which sounds like this: "Zelectrix zi ze flux kwazsatx pizze solochwl" ಠ_ಠ SIMI SAI??? I give up. 

I actually like my schedule a lot... but let's see how far into the semester I can go before I start skipping all the lectures that don't take attendance. *laugh*

Monday, September 9, 2013

Le whimsical Country Village

(January 2012, Bothell, Washington)

You should have been convinced that my title is not an exaggeration at all eh? :)


No not leaving yet lol. Passed by the entrance again so I took this photo.

Plastic face -.-

Found a cute postcard lol

Another cute postcard hehehe. I like ostrich. They look like one of my friends :D

We had tea here :)


Pink creamy-looking cookies 。◕‿◕。

Hippie chicken hahahaha wtf.

Weird flower. NO WAIT

Omg hehehehehehehehehe

I followed this cock around for like 5 minutes just to feel amused hahahahahaha

This chicken was just standing there in the middle of the road cuz the road is his grandpa's one wtf.

I shove my camera in his face (face?) and he didn't back off. Standing still like a boss.

Taken inside a random home decor shop

Hello he wasn't a decor item okay. It's a real live chicken!

SO BIG omg. The chickens there were not afraid of humans at all, I was so near and he just chilled.

WSK was making quack quack quack sound and fanning the chicken off the bridge hahaha wtf. 

ps: Blog debts from 2012 finally CLEARED!!!